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I have no VALID excuse…

 

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“I have no excuse.”

This was my response concerning not showing up at our 5:15am group run today.

I typed it….but that’s not really what I wanted to say!

I wanted to type my long list of excuses.  There are some really good ones!  

Would you like to hear them?  

No?

…I didn’t think so.

So possibly I typed the wrong statement today.

I should have typed, “I have a whole host of excuses, but none are valid enough to excuse my choice to stay in the bed this morning.”

Or simply:

“I have no VALID excuse.”

Sometimes that’s hard to admit.

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They argued with me the whole 3 miles….

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The beginning and the end of our 3 mile fight.

Who argued with me?  MY LEGS!

I think they were mad at me for what I put them through during Saturday’s long run.  I told them that it was for their own good, and just kept moving forward.

They finally gave in about mile 2.75.   So the last quarter of a mile was very pleasant!

  It wasn’t pretty…but again…

I win!


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Beginning again…again.

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Yesterday was my first day keeping track of my calorie intake via myfitnesspal….again.

The plan always works if you work the plan!

And I’m already making better choices…see:

This was my snack of choice this morning!

deliciously light, creamy and filling!

deliciously light, creamy and filling!

The validity of it’s health benefits vary depending on who you ask.

I’ve been researching whole foods/clean eating…which can be a little overwhelming and discouraging.

But there’s no debating this…today’s snack choice was a much better alternative to my snack of the day yesterday!

SIX DOUBLE STUF OREO COOKIES!

(…and yes, I DID still come under my daily 1,200 calorie goal)

Do you really love cookies more than yourself?

Do you really love cookies more than yourself?

 80 calories vs 420 calories, good choice…yay me! 
 
 

What are some of your favorite healthy snack foods?


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I told you that you were gonna get whooped.

Just in case you missed it…my brain and I had a discussion the other night before a tough race, you can read more about it here.  Sometimes you just have to let it know who’s boss.

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The Peavine Falls 2013 run is now history…and I WON!  Not the whole race…but I beat myself, and isn’t that our largest obstacle most days?

BRAIN vs. Julia

It’s going to rain.  Yes it did!…and it was lovely to run in the rain!  It wasn’t just the run and sweat burning out my frustrations…but it was as if the rain washed them all away as well.

You don’t like the rain or getting messy.  You’re right.  Typically that would be me.  But I DID IT ANYWAY!  Loved it! 

You were in better shape last year.  AND your point is? 

Bet that speed walker man is going to beat you again.  I think I saw him once.  He was running this year.  I applaud his efforts, and I have no idea if he beat me this year. 

3.2 miles UP HILL?  ARE YOU CRAZY?  Yes, I do believe so.  Maybe just a little bit….and next year I will run all the way up!  Just watch me.

You’re just not good enough.  Not only did I finish, but I beat last years time by 1 minute and 26 seconds!  You’re WRONG AGAIN!

Like I said Wednesday night….WHOOPED!

Brain = 0 / Julia = winner!

Winner winner chicken dinner (whatever that means)….that’s me!

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I’ll write a race recap later.


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I am the injury.

Healthy living is a collection of winning moments.  Daily decisions that result in ultimate victories.  Victory over self,  doubts, hurts, obstacles….

I REALLY ENJOY talking about those WINS!

Unfortunately…it also has moments of defeat.  Sometimes you have an injury that forces your goals to head in a different direction.  Sometimes YOU are the injury.  Your own poor choices.

That’s me right now.  In an attempt to be “real” with hopes that it will help someone feel “normal”…I will share this temporary defeat.

I feel sad.

I am disappointed in myself.

I have been eating A LOT…I believe it’s because I have used food as a friend for a long time….

I have gained over half of my weight back, I look at pictures from just November…and get aggravated at myself.  I was almost there!  Almost at the weight I wanted to be at.  Now, when I see a picture of myself I’m back to thinking again, “Oh…that’s a bad picture of me.”  When in reality…it IS me. 

My clothes don’t fit right…again.

I’m a little embarrassed to run…again.  I know that’s just in my head.  NOBODY notices OR cares what I look like, or if my stomach flab(that was almost gone) jiggles when I run.

It’s not just about weight…it’s about being complete/whole. Nothing missing, nothing broken.  Looking to no other source, but Jesus to “complete” me.

I also hear this in my head, “You ran a marathon, and you can’t control what you put in your mouth?  What’s wrong with you?”

So, why come so close and then sabotage all my hard work?

I don’t know.

What I do know:

I am loved no matter what I look like, or how I have disappointed myself.

I can start again.

I like the feeling of winning, better than losing.  But…part of me doesn’t want to.

Then again…part of me doesn’t want to run…but I do it anyway.

I ran a marathon!

I CAN beat this too 🙂

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~Complete in Christ alone~ ❤